xoxo boi

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May this coming year be filled with countless blessings for you and your family -xoxoboi

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.
You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.
Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It’s easy to get you excited… which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don’t stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don’t get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you’re too busy having fun to care.

Depression: Low mood, worse than and different from normal sadness, Negative thoughts and feelings, Guilt and loss of self-esteem, Sometimes hopelessness and despair, Sometimes apathy and inability to feel

Sleep Problems: The need to sleep more, A tendency to oversleep, Difficulty staying awake during the day and/or disturbed sleep with very early morning wakening

Lethargy: Fatigue, often incapacitating, making it very difficult or impossible to carry out normal routines

Over Eating: Craving for carbohydrates and sweet foods leading to an increase in weight

Cognitive Function: Difficulty with concentration and memory, The brain does not work as well, or as quickly

Social Problems: Irritability, Finding it harder to be with people

Anxiety: Tension, Stress is harder to deal with

Loss of Libido: Less interest in sex and physical contact

Sudden Mood Changes in Spring: Sharp change in mood, Some experience agitation and restlessness and/or a short period of hypomania (over activity), No dramatic mood change but a gradual loss of winter symptoms

this is pretty much why i drink in space room all day

It seems strange to talk about it now—
to take something so private and place it in such a public place —
particularly since keeping it secret was so important when I was younger.


I imagine I must have been about sixteen, and I had just about figured out that I was gay. Tony was nearly fifteen —
I went to school with him, although he was in a different year. I met him at a society at school.

He was everything that I didn’t feel that I was: confident, athletic and attractive. I had been incredibly quiet … it was an all-boys’ school and being gay was not really an option. I just tried to keep out of everyone’s way, out of the firing line. No one knew, but my reticence and retiring nature were apparently as worthy of derision.

Romanticboi, I guess because he was younger than I was, didn’t have any of these preconceptions, and I felt more confident with him. He treated me like a human being. It was fun and completely liberating.

I was vulnerable and desperate for some form of affirmation. So I suppose it was inevitable that I should fall for him.

The next year there was a school trip to Greece, and we both went. I introduced him to heavy drinking (on Greek brandy) and I got to know some of his friends.

I was slightly uncomfortable with their age, but at the same time it was such a relief not to be relentlessly judged. I listened to bad songs and felt that they meant something to me. I wrote relentlessly in a little red and black book, which wandered between teenage confessional and clumsy porn novel.

I never told him, although I think he knew.

Shortly after leaving school I finally came out to a friend of mine, who was then introduced to this interior world. He found it extremely funny, and with him, I came to realize exactly how trivial the whole thing was. And when I went to University I completely forgot about it.

Ten years later, it still seems so trivial.

He had been the major crush of my teenage years. I still see him now. He has not achieved the heights that my hormone-dazed eyes thought he would — he is, after all, a flawed and clumsy human. But I still feel an astonishing fondness for him.

I didn’t really think it would happen but — even as I have become entirely comfortable with gay dating, had relationships, succeeded in my work and generally become a more open, gregarious and confident person — he still occupies a part of my head, and I feel warm when I think about him.

It’s not the same by any means … god knows I am not in love with him anymore.

But loving him was what I built my gay identity around — and in some ways, I could not have asked for surer foundations.